It's like insomnia woohoowoo, It's like insomnia woohoowoo wooo.

Insomnia strikes back. It's 2:00, and I can't sleep.




That's a good thing though. A great thing actually. Because sleep is the last thing I need at a time like this. If only I wasn't so damn tired at the same time.




Nevertheless, it's not like I study my ass off or anything like that. Mostly it's just YouTube videos after videos, MSN conversations after conversations. Quite unproductive, yes, but I don't think I can do anything about that.




Speaking of which, it's amazing how some people are just so stubbornly dim-witted. Pitiful, as I watch them, but at the same time just as hysterical. Like I always like to say, those are the people that seriously take stupid to a whole nother level. You know, those type of people that just pout and spit out whatever lowly vulgarities they know, partly because that's the only damn thing they know how to do, but at the same time because they don't understand what the hell you just said about them.




I guess it's mean to pick on retards, but ignorant retards we must pick on. Oh and I like to do so with a smirk on my face. =)




School's been great, had this conversation/debate with Kelvin about "fate", which of course, being the cynical sceptic that I am, do not believe in. However, what I do believe in are things like "God's Will" and stuff, but FATE? Kinda naive gotta say. But Kelvin did made me revisit some stuff and rethink about some shit, although my stand still stays. Besides, it's rather pessimistic and despairing to believe in fate isn't it? You're meant to be that way, no point trying to work yourself to change.




However like I said, those ignorant fools ARE fated to stay that way, unless one day they wake up and look in the mirror and realise how fucking dumb they look.




Imbeciles wasting my blog space. =)

Media Junk

Compare the Beatles, indisputably the greatest band known to mankind, to any shithole band that we have now. Like Falloutboy, or Simple Plan.




Compare 2pac, the most phenomenal rapper in history, to any hiphop-posers we have now. Like Lil' Wayne, or 50 cent.




Compare Tom Hanks, one of the best actors that I've seen, to the pretty faced good for nothing actors we have now. Like Megan Fox, or the Olsen twins.




What the hell is going on in the entertainment world nowadays? Why are we so blindly, indiscriminately and voraciously seeping in all these garbage they send out from MTV? And yet some of us seem to ENJOY this process. The end-products of a can't-be-bothered apathetic entertainer or producer. It's precisely because we are so magnanimous and accepting of such atrocities that they continue unabated.




Why do people head bang to mindless repetition of lyrics of Soulja Boy, waste their time watching New York Minute (many for the tiny bit of "shower scene")? Is it sheer bad taste or is it because we are just so saturated and intoxicated in the media junk that we are unaware of its heinousness?




But alas, at the same time, it's not all bad. We're not set out for doom yet. There's still this tiny glimpse of hope in today's entertainment biz.




There's Eminem to replace 2pac, probably one of the greatest lyricist ever lived.




There's Jason Mraz to strum his guitar making beautiful melodies much akin to those of the Beatles.




There's Shia Lebouf, also known as the young Tom Hanks, whose acting is quite commendable IMO.




Just hoping more of these come along soon.

Dopplegangers

It's been a while since I blogged about anything substantial or pragmatic. Time was not much of a constraint though. Mainly it's because when I blog, I blog rather spontaneously, and that "spontaneity" didn't come about much these few days. Well, it did, obviously, and thus here I am trying to write about something half the people that bother to type heesanginhu.blogspot.com into the explorer bar (or in many cases type "hee" and scroll down to find the appropriate address) don't want to or already know, assuming that the other half totally ignore any lengthy and convoluted posts.



Doppleganger. Some might've heard of them (or the effect, depending on your beliefs) some might have seen pictures. But I doubt anyone I know have encountered one before. Since the chances are one to a six billion thereabout.




Doppleganger, sometimes called Doublewalkers, are a true replicate of oneself living in some other part of the Earth. It is said that a doppleganger of a person would look exactly like the person him/herself, with even more identical physical traits than twins. So wow, great, a clone living in some other part of the world whom i'd never ever get to meet for the rest of my life, how interesting.




Well, according to the theory/myth (and this is the interesting part) you better hope you don't come across your doppleganger, because once you do, you'd DIE (yeap). There were numerous incidents in which these cases "occured" since the 17th century, and of course like any other myths, without any real visual proof.



There was also a Japanese film of the same title, and although I have not actually seen the movie, the plot goes that if a person meets his own doppleganger one of them has to die. This meaning that the two cannot co-exist with the knowledge of each other's existence.




They say that everyone has their "own" doppleganger. This was the part that really got me thinking. And doubting. And realising how STUPID this whole doppleganger thing was. Think about it. If everyone has their own doppleganger, that means that there are only about 3 billion people in the world, and the other 3 billion are just mere copies of them!




Now THAT doesn't make sense because if that's the case, the chances of bumping into someone that you know that looks like that other someone skyrockets. I cannot really do the math, but the chances are still pretty high. Assuming you travel a lot.




And then it got me thinking. What about all the famous people? Imagine you're a nigger living in the ghettos of Detroit. You pick up scrap metals for a living, smoke pot more than you respire, play ball and listen to rap songs. One day you walk by a TV store without robbing it, and you notice a nigger that looks just like you on a TV show. You stare closer and you squint your big ass nigger eyes. He looks just like you, and I mean it's he's so identical to you to the extent of being as if you're staring in the mirror instead of the TV screen. Except he's wearing a nice expensive suit that's probably worth more than your cardboard box (oops I mean house) and has his name being run across the screen as he speaks eloquently, giving his oratory. His name goes something like this.




Barack Obama.




Now assuming, although quite pretty much unlikely, you can read, and somehow overheard the news that Obama's the president of the United States, AND know that Detroit is actually part of America. What would be your next move? Obviously you'd publicise. Get some publicity, news coverage, shizz like that. Interviews in maybe shows like Oprah, and who knows what else.




The problem is, if every famous person has a doppleganger, then that's kinda wtf.





And like any other urban legend, there are scientists who entail, trying to find a "logical explanation" behind the phenomenon. Apparently dopplegangers are just false images, much like delusions due to a cock up in the brain. Then why did they all die after seeing their dopplegangers? I don't know. Must be a queer coincidence or just sheer bad timing. If you think about it, if you're sick and about to die, there's a pretty good chance your brain's probably messed up as badly.





That's about it for dopplegangers. Interesting?

Boo

Kim Jong-il is the leader of North Korea. He claims his country has obtained nuclear weaponry. He threatens the US with it. "Don't make me shoot you with my missiles" "Don't make me do it, because I will."




And then US goes, "Pfft yeah I'm scared."




Pfft yeah.

Scum

Dogs are better than some human I know because dogs, when given a treat, know how to be grateful. Grateful. Piece of scum.

Joke

Oh here's a joke. What has 6 eyes but can't see?























3 blind mice.







Not my joke, don't blame me. Adapted from MS

Prelim 1

GG for all the papers. GG GG GG GG GG GG




This calls for serious studying.















.........After 1 more round of DotA

Fags

The fact that Perez Hilton's so well-liked (at least has sort of a fan-base) just goes to show how opened up our society, well not OUR society but the US society, has become towards fags. Ooo yeah fags.




There's obviously a huge difference in the way the society views fags and lesbos. Obviously the latter is well, sorta more accepted. And I'm not just talking about the fact that we don't have a gay white boy version of Ellen Degeneres yet. In fact, we do have Elton John. But then again he's just too damn rockin' good to shun just for his sexuality. Perez on the otherhand (although did not officially come out but it's so fucking obvious he's a fag) is quite a wonder because honestly speaking, gay or not gay, I just hate his face and he's seriously not good for anything except drawing circles in celebrity photos and scribbling some illegible words on it.




And apparently Will.I.AM was not really a big fan of him either. For those of you who didn't know, Will.I.AM and faggy boy got into some sort of a conflict, and which led to a tiny bit of violence. One of Will.I.AM's entourage crew member punched the fag or something and the fag decided, feeling threatened for his life, to twitter what happened on that very moment after the incident when he "ran" back to his hotel. I'm like wtf? That was what he actually said. I mean if an angry black man wants to punch my face the last thing I would be thinking of would be to TWITTER IT. If I even had a twitter account that is. Oh and then to top it off he posted a youtube video of him sobbing and whining and wailing and complaining about Will.I.AM for about 20 minutes. Seriously, if this guy doesn't declare gay in the next few years, I'd be surprised.



But back to the point. Why are lesbos treated better than gays? Because unlike what many claim that we have evolved, oh the society is a whole lot different now, it's still a male dominated world we're living in. THAT's why lesbos are prefered.




Imagine two girls making out in a park. No one's complaining. Heck, some douchebags might even jerk off to it. Now you get two guys doing the same thing. FUCK them faggots.




Fags or lesbos, people shouldn't be so uptight about other people's sexuality. Sure it's going against nature, going up the wrong holes and shit. GOD FORBID. But seriously, unless a gay homeless man tried to assfuck you forcefully in a dark alley and help only came by after 30 minutes, I don't think anyone should feel threatened or hatred against these people. Homos are human too.




Pfft yeah right.

People

There are people that like me (I hope) and there are people that don't. Right now I think the latter predominates in number. But honestly speaking, I'm not really the type to hold grudges, not because I forgive but because I forget. As time passes the fury I had at that moment against someone just sort of attenuates, and most of the time it doesn't take that much time. But I guess that's not the case for everyone.




Angry at me or not, I still think everyone should be treated the same.



On a brighter note, I think you have godly beautiful voice ZOMG

God

Having a lot of disputes lately with mom about God. She's the typical hardcore believer, and I was too. Was.



Well, I can't really say I had been a strong believer because I was always under the influence of my mom since birth to believe in God, say prayers, sing hymns, etc etc. So it was pretty much automatic and subconscious. But now, no. I'm not the same gullible boy no more.



God. The holy entity that created us all. And be it Christians, Buddhists or whatever the religion is, we all believe in this God being. Now we can ask ourselves; Why? Why do we believe in God? What IS God anyway? Where is he? How did he come about? Endless questions, boundless explanations.



As for the why, I think I have a clue. The human brain, as explained in one of my earliest posts, The Human Brain, is a very weak, fragile system. It was never meant to withstand anything so hardcore, such as the life we're living. And especially in the Tsar regime or the Dark Ages when it was one of the most HARDCORE periods in mankind history, people really could not depend on mere mortals such as one another.




They needed this THING, which had superpowers and could do any shit in the world, AND to top it off, loved you so much so he could actually USE these superpowers FOR you. And tadah, God.



There's a book I read long ago, which I frantically yet unsuccessfully tried to recall the title, which explains that God is like a dragon in the garage.



"There's a dragon in my garage. Oh you wanna see it? Well, it's actually invisible. So you can't really see it. But it's really there I swear. Oh you wanna touch it? Well, it's actually immaterial too so you can't really touch it either. But it's really really there!"

Better Better Better Better Better! Nah Nah Nah NananaNah

I don't really believe much in soulmates and all, but I do believe that there's that one special girl out there for me. Might not just be A GIRL, might be more, or might not even exist in the first place, I don't know. But it's sorta like THE ONE, sounding very much like the matrix but yeah. I think that ONE exists.




The ONE has to be a girl that I meet extremely outta nowhere, very randomly. And she has to be someone that fits my personality perfectly. So that I do not have to be someone else in front of her. Oh and she has to take the correct coloured pill to be THE ONE. She also has to make the right choice to save me from falling from a building after getting multiple bullet holes on my abdomen.




No, I am not trying hard to be funny. And most definitely, no I am not trying to advertise my singlehood and attract ladies which I pretty much predict would not be the case anyway in the first place because I look like a sock ball. I'm just blogging that's what I'm doing.




What I do believe in however, though a well-known sceptic that I am, is fate. I do believe in fate and destiny, and the "it was all meant to be this way" kinda stuff. Idealistic, maybe. Or just hopeful. See because if you believe in fate, at least you have the hope that everything happens for a reason. Or is meant to be. Like "blessings in disguise and shit" and how "God works in mysterious ways". So at the end of the day, you still have that little hope that you are the winner. Or will be sooner or later.




Well I certainly hope things get better.

Speaking words of wisdom, let it be.

I must have a thing for not doing exam questions because I accidentally left out 1 question, and had no time to do another today.




So 2 questions blank, and I saw my A fly out of my exam paper zoom, hit my on the back of my head pow, and away.



And I was so confident I was gonna get an A again. Oh well, pride comes before a fall, I hope I learnt my lesson from this.



Physics is gonna be GG as well.



Oh and I still haven't forgotten. I'm still gonna ask for her number. The only question is when.



Soon I'd say. Soon.



Ah, and I officially got motivated by Darren to work hard for prelim 2. Of all things I never thought that would ever happen HAAH. Guess he has a way with words. And knows his shit about shits with the shits.



And A_____. You're a sweet girl. You really are.